Summer is coming to an end, empty beaches and say goodbye to endless summer nights. I already going to miss it and I barely can remember how it's like to put on cozy sweaters, drinking thea in bed with some teardropping movies.
If I had learn one thing this summer, is that things happends without expecting it, no rush no worries just let it go and let it happen. Just sit down lay back and watch your own movie, you are the director of your life, I also have learned that people will come and go in your life we can't expect them to love us or care for us forever. As long as we care of ourselves that's all what matters. But the problem is I care to much not about myself, but about others, about the people close to me and when I care to much I'll be hurt to much. And the last thing I want is getting hurt again everytime over and over again.
I've been go some struggles lately and there's nothing I can do about it because my worst enemy are my own thoughts at night. And I hate it because those are the worst fears I can have, maybe I'm trying to hard or maybe I want to give up the things to soon when it comes to close to me.
Sometimes I really want to run away from my own thoughts and fears I don't want to face it because it gonna hurt, it's hurting because I care.
If I had learn one thing this summer, is that things happends without expecting it, no rush no worries just let it go and let it happen. Just sit down lay back and watch your own movie, you are the director of your life, I also have learned that people will come and go in your life we can't expect them to love us or care for us forever. As long as we care of ourselves that's all what matters. But the problem is I care to much not about myself, but about others, about the people close to me and when I care to much I'll be hurt to much. And the last thing I want is getting hurt again everytime over and over again.
I've been go some struggles lately and there's nothing I can do about it because my worst enemy are my own thoughts at night. And I hate it because those are the worst fears I can have, maybe I'm trying to hard or maybe I want to give up the things to soon when it comes to close to me.
I think once you've been hurt, you're so scared and affraid to get attached again. You have this fear that everyone you like is gonna break your heart. But that's not a healthy way thinking, deep inside I know better and there's still honest, good people in the world. I just have to keep stop running into my own fears, I think fear is making me weak.
Sometimes I really want to run away from my own thoughts and fears I don't want to face it because it gonna hurt, it's hurting because I care.
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